sumtin bout life...

dunnow lah...i write in chinese let ppl scold...i writen in english also let ppl scold...how u all wan wor...zzzz....suan liao la...write in bahasa...boleh??=.=lll
dun care dun care...write in english better...more ezier 2 write...

2 day...fucking sian....go out...dunnow do wat....
stay at home...more sian...so i choose 2 go out...bt most of all..i would like 2 say thanks 2 ah fei..
reli reli thank you lah...thanks 4 helping me out...i promiss u dat i will remember it n repay u with more....thanks...

jus now...chat wit sum 1 dat i've jus know....he told me many tins about life...be 4 dis...i tot i know many tins...seen many tins...bt then when i chat wit him...den only i know...wat i know is jus feather compare 2 wat he have seen..
he asked me...watz da meaning of life...
living for other ppl??
living for yourself??
living for responsible??
den i was jus stun at there...dunnow wat 2 reply...cus i nvr thought of that also...
den he said...its normal dat u still dunnow...u still young...still gt many tins u ned 2 learn...
he says...be 4 dis when he was a direct sales...he used 2 tink of $$ is everytings...
family is second...everytin he c is jus $$ n $$ n $$...
bt then by da time he lost his brother...he regreated...he sayz...if i gt 2 chose again...i will choose 2 accompany my family...n now i was stuck at here..dunow either 2 choose my family 1st or $$ 1st...he told me bout a story...bout 2 brothers...quite meaningfull..here is how it goes...
there is this 2 brothers...living at 80th floors...
both of them also is working 2 gether...so off day also 2gether lo...
den 1 day they planned 2 go for hill climbing...
on dat day...they when out...climbing hills...by da time they come back...
da lift under maintainence....so wat 2 do...use da stairs 2 climb up 2 80 floors lo...
they climb climb...untill 20 floors..they started 2 gt tired....cus with all da bags n gear...
so 1 of them suggested...y dun v put down our bags n gear at here...den come back n take it when da lift is operate again...den the other 1 sayz ok a....
so they put down the bags n gear...started 2 climb again....
when reached 40th floors..they was relax a bit lo..cus without da bags n gear...
den they started 2 quarrel...be cus of u lah..dint check 4 da notice...make me have 2 climb 80th floor..becus of u lah...say wat go climbing hills...den quarrel quarrel...reached 60th floors....
den they said...ei..stop quarrel lah..im tired of dis kind of conversation ad....jus climb 2 da 80th floors quitly ba...den all along da way 2 da 80th floors...they kept quite..n jus climd....
by da time they reached...da brother make a pose of letting his brother open da door...
bt then...his brother saiz..huh??i tot da keys is with you all along...
actually da keyz is at da bag then laied at 20th floors..

dis story tell us bout life...when u tin of it...in da 1st 20 years of life...ur carrying a burden dat ur family r giving u...they asked u 2 finish diploma...finish degree...finish spm...n then after dat...
ur free...cus u finished wat they asked...n now ur free 2 do wat ever u wan...n then by da time u reached 40...u started 2 complain dis n dat...u started 2 sayz...if only i knew...i would have be dis or that...n then when u reached 60th..u will started 2 become quite...tired of complaining...tired of whining...n by da time u almost die...u will tin of what u haven't do...or what u have wanted 2 do...bt then wait...when do you planned 2 do it??it was ofcourse in ur 20th rite??
so now...appreaciate tins...used ur heart 2 enjoy nt jus ur body....tink back...what u've done...
when he sayz till here...i was jus silence at there...dus i reli dunnow wat 2 say...i was tinking what i have done for my 21th years of life...nth...reli nth....im jus living meaningless..empty...
he sayz...once he asked a guys...ei..after u graruated liao...wat u wan do for living??
den da guy answer...everytins lo...i wana know all da tins....
den he asked again...ok..u wan do all da tins..bt then by da time u reached 30th..u still havent earn $$ will you be nervous??
ofcourse lah....sure de ma...
den he sayz...ok lah..u c har...now ur ad 20 sutin after u graduate..den...still gt 8-10 years 4 u 2 gt 30th...den if u reli wana learn tins a...1 years for each jobs..by da time u reached 30th..u still swithing jobs...still nt stable...n den u jus only manage 2 do for how many jobs?? 8?? 10??
wat for...u c all da millioniers...they only stick at 1...n they sucess in it...n y is dat....its cus ur mind concept....if u tin u can...u will sure can...like 4 example...for the colour red...when u all look at it..u all will sure sayz its red...n y is dat...y it isn't black or sumtin else...its becus ur told dat its red when da time ur born till now....n now...if i tell u dat...go do dark tins...."lou pian men"...
n i've been tells u for 5 years...u will sure go n do de ma....datz becus of ur mind....
althought u might sayz dat i wont dis n dat...bt diu...i also gt say be 4 lah..i wont smoke wan..
no matter wat i also wont smoke....bt now...smoke like my life only...no matter wat also i will smoke....n dat is wat u reli wan...no matter wat....even u dun have $$ also u will find a way 2 smoke...n y is dat...cus its sumtin u reli wanted...n when u wan sumtin...u will reli going 2 find a way 2 gt it n stick on it....its jus like a girl u like....u wan 2 ngam her...bt then ur scared of being reject...scare of dis n dat....n dat means u do not like u nt reli want her....its jus dat u have gud imation at her only....there r difference between like n gud imation u know....sum 1 u like doesn't mean dat u have gud imation at her...maybe u like her 4 her attitude...like her for her looking....
n do you know dat??
there is once a lecture...he asked sum ppl 2 ply a games...write down 10 tins datz most important in ur life..n write in according 2 da most till da less most....den sum of them write..
$$ come 1st lo..follow by family...den carrier....den friends....den loves...n den.....
ok now...da lec sayz...$$ come 1st...ok...by da time u ned 2 choose between $$ n family...wat will choose??sum of them says directly...of course family lah..bt then y izzit ur putting $$ at 1st??
den again...when u have 2 choose between ur family n ur carrier...wat will u choose now??
family??n datz y u still havent success till now.....
friends n carrier??? will u betray ur friends for ur carrier??n in da end...da less most..will probably become da most important....n datz becus u still cant sucess...u havent decided where 2 go n wat 2 choose 1st...
hmp now...have you ever been betray by u friends??nope??in dis world...
there r ppl dat will betray u...ppl dat u trust...ppl dat u care....by da time comes there r only 2 wayz u will choose...
1 is choose nt 2 trust da ppl around you...
n da 2nd 1 is 2 tink it another way....u still trust...bt nt all of them...cus u know..there r still gud friends..dun because of a tree chop off da whole jungle....
u know y is dat u dun have da mood 2 study??
datz becus of ur mind concept...u know dat even thought u cant finish ur studies..ur family still can support u..they still can raise u..n becus of dat u dint worry bout tins...
u have da benefit of all dat u ned..y dun u used it...u might sucess is ur life...dun waste it....used it wisetly....n 1 more tins...ur 2 quite lah....u should have talk more...dare dare share ur idea...
n u kept on like dis...u will lose in buisness..cus u 2 soft...ppl bully u..u also wont say a tins...
be brave...dare dare say out wat u tin...n ur point...no ppl will laught de...u must reli change ur attitude if nt u will surely be bully when ur in buisness..
n i've been talking so much...wat do u tin...bt then again...im nt 100% correct...no 1 is...
if u tin im jus craping...den forgot bout it..dun mind it..
by da time he finished...i was still stunning at there...tinking....
revising wat he've said...thought bout wat i should do...n wat i ned 2 do now...
as a conclution...dint sleep 4 da whole nite....tinking...
its time 4 me 2 change...he is right bout 1 tins...i am reli quite quite...ppl bully me..i also wont say a tins..cus i alwayz tin dat work prove more den sayz..bt then again...sumtimes...if u dint sayz ppl reli dunnow....cus they nt da worm in ur heart...
ok lah...stop talking ad....sleepy liao...nite nite....

我以为 wo yi wei...

ermm...sum songs dat i like veli much..

hopefully u all will like it too..

我以为

演唱：品冠

你总说不想有天让我知道,

你对他,有那么好. 你说会懂我的失落,

不是靠宽容, 就能够解脱.

我以为我出现的时候刚好,

你和他, 就说要分开.

我以为你, 已对他不再期待,

不纵容他再给你伤害

我以为我的温柔, 能给你整个宇宙,

我以为我能全力 填满你感情的缺口,

全心陪在你左右. 弥补他一切的错,

也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.

我以为终究你会慢慢明白,

他的心 已不在你身上,

我的关心, 你依然无动于衷,

我的以为 只是我以为.

我以为我的温柔, 能给你整个宇宙,

我以为我能全力 填满你感情的缺口,

专心陪在你左右. 弥补他一切的错,

也许我太过天真, 以为奇迹会发生.

他让你红了眼眶, 你却还笑着原谅,

原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.

我以为我够坚强, 却一天天的失望,

少给我一点希望, 希望就不是奢望.

我以为我的温柔, 能给你整个宇宙,

我以为我能全力 填满你感情的缺口,

专心陪在你左右. 弥补他一切的错,

也许我太过天真, 以为奇迹会发生.

他让你红了眼眶, 你却还笑着原谅,

原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.

我以为我够坚强, 却输的那么绝望,

少给我一点希望, 希望就不是奢望.

@ Day WiTh sOh@i....

jerr......nt fun de..say wan go skol ad de ma..
how come da alarm kenot wake me up de...wtf wtf wtf...
how come like dat de...haizzzz...
sure going 2 let my lao po scold ad...yesterday still promiss her 2 go skol de....
haizzzz...nvm nvm...dint go is dint go liao...
suan liao...go eat...aik..forgot ad..2 day promiss me de fren wan go sg wang de..
after he call me den only i remember...haizzz..old liao..so forgotfull..
den quickly change..take a bath..den run out ad...
dint gt 2 eat...T_T...
bt actually hor..its me ask them out de..i forgot...hehe..
after go leh..direct go low yat...
cus i wan buy keyboard...
be 4 dat leh...go eat fish fin bowl..nt gud also..
bt atlease gt sumtin inside da stomach lo..
fuhh..at there go 2 da 1st shop...jibet...

da worker there so lanci..ask him tins..dun wan tiao me wa...

suan liao...tulan..go other place buy...

go other place find here find there..wa so many type de wa...

some gt light under da key..some even gt air purifier...

yeah...n da price also yeah....

bt still not my type of choice...

my demand ez nia ma..jus wan soft keypad..

plus sum function key nia ma...

so hard de meh...zzzzzz
choose till i almost give up de time..den aik...
found sumtin loks like wat i demanded..
bt its in maroon coulor de...wtf...ned like dat ma....
gt blue summore...bt then y no silver de...
fortunately there is 1 at da bottom there...
yeah yeah yeah...i almost buy da maroon wan ad..
yeeeaaahhh...buy liao...so soft lah the keypad...
plus gt funtion key dat i wan also...
hehe....
ehhh.....after buy liao..do wat wor??
ermm...kia lo...go buy donut lo... J.CO donut...
my favourite...hehe...bt then...
when on da way 2 pavilion..
i asked..wan go high class de complex ma??
let u c da only outlet of LV...in malaysia...
[frenz] ehh...ok lo...kia lah...paiseh wat wor....
i wear sliper also dare dare go nia..
[me] ok lo...kia lo..

den after get inside of Star Hills Galery..

[frenz] wtf..how come so stressfull de...
its like ppl watching me only...
[me] abu u tot a..u c da design..jibet...wear sliper lah...
plus u know infront is JW Marriot ma?
[frenz] JW Marriot????xia mi tung tung??
[me] ni sohai a....JW Marriot also dunnow...5 star hotel u know???
[frenz] reli bo..dun lie me hor...
[me] zzzz...lie u gt $$ earn ma??ket ket go out lo...paiseh leh...

after gt out...

[frenz] hmp...so wat...u wait till 1 day...when i am rich..i booked up da whole hotel..
let u all ply inside...u wan wat girls...japanese?? chinese??western??
jus say nia....
[me] pui...wai till u rich only say dat 2 me lah...dun later me hire u pulak...noob...
[frenz] fuk u...call me pro....
[me] pro lin meh..pro...pui...

chat chat chat..reach pavilion ad...
go walk walk around den go buy da donnut....

[me] trust me...da donnut reli delicous de...
[frenz] reli bo...dun lie me hor....
[frenz] later dun gud kill gao u...

when reach J.CO donut...

[frenz] wtf...reli so gud ma???so many ppl que de??
[me] abu...last time i come que 4 half n hour....bt its worth it...
trust me leh....
[frenz] ok lo...we'll c.....ui...thirsty leh..wan go buy drinks....
[me] ohh...ok lo..me n him go buy drinks...u que here...waakaka...
u wan wat drinks...hehe...kia..
[frenz] kia kia..
[frenz] wa kao...i wan 100 plus...
[me] okok...

go there...tot of watson gt sell water...bt only stuff..no water de...
den go other shop...c da price almost da same as da food court de..
sian..go back food court...buy drinks...

[me] har???no 100 plus a??(dis time tiao lo,sure kena ad)
[frenz] nvm nvm...7up gei ta...he dunnow de...
[me] o ok lo..7up plz...
ehhh...he still long de wor...go sit for a while 1st ba....
[frenz] wa u reli dun wan tiao him wan a??
ok lo sit 1st at there also ned wait.hehe..
[me] okok...5 minute hor....

after 10-15 minute...

[me] ui kia lo...times up ad...
[frenz] times up wa..ad pass so long ad lo....
[me] hehe normal lah...

go back there...aik...almost its his turn ad....

[me] buy how many wor?
[frenz] cin cai lo..a dozen lo...3 ppl...each gt 4...ok??
[me] okok....
[frenz] lai lah...who scare who wor...as our dinner...

[me] ehh..i wan glazzy 3..don mochino 3...alcapone 3...n why nut 3..datz all...
[waiter] ok...ya...

after buy leh...go back lo...yeah yeah...so happy lah...
gt donut plus new key board also...
sian a...so slow de a da bus....finally back at wangsa ad....
wtf....raining heavily wa...
zzzz...run 2 da nearest restourant restourant wangsa maju[under lrt]...
at there eat our donnut...

[frenz] emmmmm....nice leh da donut...
[me] abu..tot i lie u all de ah...i ad said wat...its worth waiting...rite??
[frenz] yaya...even wait 4 an hour also is worth it.
[frenz] walau ehhhh...wat 2 say...tumbs up man...tumbs up..so fking delicious lah...
how they do dat...so gud...
nex time...when gt go sg wang...sure mus go buy....
[me] hehe...my favourite leh...remember us also when u go...
jibet a...da rain wont stop de a...how go back wor...
[frenz] wait a while 1st lo...wat 2 do....

after 30 minute...

[me] ui...tired ad leh...still raining so heavy....
[frenz] =.=....kia lah kia lah..run back lah...
[me] kia lo dun wait lo...

run run run..finally back home ad...take a bath...
rest a while...ejnoying my stomach...plus my new keyboard....
so happy lah....yeah yeah yeah yeah.....
den i suddently gt sum idea...go download songs...
50's-70's songs..hmhmm...download 36 songs at a time....
gt sumtin like..smoke gets in your eyes...love me tender...yesterday...hey june...
only you...plus plus...
downloading de time...ned wait summore....so tot of go snooker..call kaki...he jibet de...
say he wna bath 1st..ok lo...wait wait wait...cb....1hrs ad wor...
[me] jibet u bathing or ta sui qiang??
[frenz] soli soli...wan mei gt tins 2 do..veli fast de...
[me] walan...i wait 4 1hrs liao...den only u say...
[frenz] veli fast de...wan finish ad...

10 minute later...

[frenz] i go bath now liao....wait a while...
[me] zzzzz...sohai...noob....jibet ren....
[frenz] weeeeeeeeeeee....ui later teman me go lrt...i wan go lrt 1st...
wan go take $$ no $$ liao....
[me] dai ko..now raining leh...how go wor...
[frenz] u de house gt rain only ma...where gt wor....
[me] ni sohai a...my house beside ur house only...me de gt rain u de dun have wa....
go bath lah...talk so many....cb....

after another 10 minute...
hehe open me de song...'smoke gets in your eyes' loud loud...
let all ppl passing my house listen..n curious...cus i living at 1st foor only...
plus my room de window facing da condo's corridor...
n my computer next 2 da window....wakakaka...
yeah yeah...
snooker gei ta..after dat leh...tired ad...lazy type so many ad...
u all dun sian i also sian..type till sian....sleep...
2molo reli ned 2 go skol ad..wake me up plz....alarm!!!!!

w@t i dId 2d@y..

errmm....quite long dint blog ad...dunnow wan write wat also...

so jus write bout wat i did 4 2day lo...hehe...

ehhh...2 day hor..actually i wan go skol de..bt then hor..

dunnow y me de alarm dint rang..althought my fren gt call me lo...

bt i also lazy 2 go ad..cus late liao..

den hor...after i wake up den only i know dat my hp de time set wrong..s

et reverse ad..nite become morning...zzz.

so leh 2 day ponteng!!!

after dat at 1 sumtin go eat wit frenzz...bt i dint eat also..

cus jus wake up ma..no appetite eat also..after eat..

go jusco...BUY NEW SLIPPER..yeah yeah....

new slipper...da old wan wan break ad..

so comfortable when wearing it..wakakakaka...

den after dat..go bank..me de fren wan buy bank draft..

den when on da way back fren call me liao..say they at cc now...

call me go ply..me ok de....den ma wan go ad lo..

bt dunnow y..stomach suddently veli pain...

run back home 1st..dun wan tiao them..

fuh...so siok...take a bath...den go tbun[cc]!!!

bt i jus ply a game only...nt fun de..

after dat leh...register for DOTA competition..wakakaka..

finally..register liao...

our team name..hehe...EVERYDAY!!!

team leader...Mr sUnDay...[sunday]

team member..

me lo..............[monday]

mr hock.........[everyday]

mr ee hong....[holiday]

mr fei.............[1 0 3 1]

mr kah yuet..[vi-romp]

hey hey...free games..wakakaka...

den after dat leh..

go eat lo..nasi lemak ayam...

gud gud gud...veli gud..wakakaka...

so happy wit new slippers..

den leh..go back home rest a while 1st...

tot of sleeping de...btt dunnow y kenot sleep..

so jus on9 4 fun...watch comic..

when its almost 10..fren call...go eat...

sianzzz raining day..ned walk there summore...

den go home lo..rest a while...

go out again..hehe call fren go snooker...

bt dat sohai...let me wait 4 half n hour...

tulan..call lao po...chat chat a while...more tulan..

cus chat till half..direct disconnect den kenot call liao..

datz y i hated Melati Utama..fuk MU...bad connection...fucked!!!

finally he is here...go snooker gei ta...

i lose thought..no form...

after dat leh...go tbun again...bt when at there...

2 many kaki..so me n 2 other frenz join other team..lose gao gao...

althought i played quite gud..still lose...noob teamate...NOOB!!!

after game..go yum cha...reached home bout 4.30 morning...

still dun wan sleep...so ma blog blog lo...

haizzz..sian lah...go sleep ba..

if nt later 2molo kenot wake up..ponteng again...=.=lll

ReCeNt h@bBit

dunnow y lah...recently i like listening 2 da radio n smoke...
open up da computer..
on msn do nth with it...
loking at da comp....
blanking my mind...
listening 2 songs...
smoke,
n i can do dat 4 a long period...sumtimes..i tin of what i've done..
errr actually...i started smoking..pounch ear hole...
talk cock or rubbish..drink...act as bad as i could..
n all that...its becuase of sum 1 in my past..
because of her..i've change frm a guai guai kids...
2 become wat i've become now..rubbish...useless wood...
i know its nt worth it..
bt then when it comes 2 doing it..its hard u know..
for me...its kind of hard 4 me 2 remember sum 1...bt then..once i "saved"u in my head..
its for forever...n i wont forget bout it no matter wat happen..

all of u alwayz ask...where is ur gf..when u gona have a gf...
2 tell u all da trurh...its nt dat i dun wan 2 have a gf...
its because when it comes 2 love..im a total loser...
its fuking hurt u know...when sum1 u reli like...rejected u..
n then be with ur frenz...fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!
n da worst part is...they shown up infront of me..holding hands...
n they jus act normal..talking n laughing with me...
yeah..maybe i was laughing n talking with you guyz..
bt deep down inside...my heart was bleading like water falls...
do you know dat i would give away everytin jus 2 run away at dat time...
y did you show up infront of me..y!!!
izzit 2 show dat you are veli bahagia?
or izzit you wan 2 show dat ur sorry..
i would rather you dint come...like dat i wont be hurt so bad..
like dat i wont c you holding hands with him...
althought it has been 3 years ago...bt then...
when i tink of it..its still hurt...
n till now...i still afraid 2 purpose 2 a girl...
althought i gt a gf after dat...bt i nvr say dat i love her also...
i jus direct hold her hands...n she dint reject...
so hehe....bt then it only last for a month or so...
cus actually i was jus trying my luck at dat time..hold it for fun...
who knows...she accept it...wat ever lah...
now i jus wan 2 concentrate on my studies...
other tins...go let dog fuk 1st...dun care..

NiGht NonSeNce

night time..its da only time dat i am reli concious...
i alwayz stay up untill its veli late...
althought there is nt much 2 do at late night..
bt still its da only time i could be myself..
no nit 2 wear mask..
no nit 2 smile even if my mood is not gud..
no nit 2 lok at ppl face 2 do tins..
its so peaceful u know..
cus at late night everytin goes quiet...
dun have da sohai mat rempit dat goes around wit cheap n noisy motor...
dun have fighting...
dun have cars dat honk arnd...
dun have pigs dat scream as if they own the place..

its da only time i could tink...
n also its da only time dat i could study..
no ppl will kacau n ask me 2 go out...
cus they all sleep like pig ad...
n now...
its time for me 2 sleep also...my alarm [masjid sembayang sound] ad rang..

study life===boring life...

boring boring boring....
i veli fucked up with study life...expecially at dis sem..
yeah i gt class everyday...bt then da class is only 2hrs n most long period is jus 3 hrs..
n its fking pengajian malaysia[sejarah]....wtf...
every day,when i wake up i felt veli veli lazy 2 go skol cus its only 2 hrs class..
no point going also.bt then i'll go also la.cus at home also nt 2 do.
after class..eat..after eat.go back bath..
den...tbun[cyber cafe].
after dat...sleep 4 a while.
den 9 sumtin my fren will call me 2 eat dinner.
after dat.snooker.n after dat yum cha a while.
den if no accident happen.80% will go 2 tbun again.
den.yum cha.after yum cha.go back sleep.
n the other day.same tins goes.
my life is jus repeating n repeating n repeating..


oh n 1 more tins..sum times if i gt abit $ n fren asked..
i go clubbing..da last time i go is bout 2 weeks ago..
bt i dint have any fun at all..4 guyz n 4 girls..drinked 2 bottle of liquer.
fuhh..so high man...bt then when it comes 2 $$ damn gao..
1 ppl bout 150..jus 2 go there n drink..summore i was all alone at there..
all of them go wit gf..althought there is a girl teman me lah..
btt i wasn't interested at her at all..so guai..summore drink abit only nia..
tell me she is drunked...its like she is pretending 2 be drunked...
n da most worst part...my fren vomited infront of me..plus his gf also..
he jus like loked at me..den..bluek...den his gf pulak...
holding my seluar summore...den..also same tin..bluek...
wtf...plz lah..i not da toilet...
den suddently i heard "because of you i nvr stay 2 far frm da side walk"
yeah..wat a relief..its time 2 go back...
i almost pissed when on da way back..
i sit my frens car..bt then he let his gf or so drive..
its ok at 1st..cus she driving veli careful..n then..she asked..
u know how 2 go back ma??
n by da time i replied yes...
fuhhhh...change gear..step on da pedle...
wtf!!!she drived so yeng...no nit take brake wan..frm sg wang 2 my house there..
10 minute or less...even if i drive i also takes bout 20 minute or more...
my leg shakes by da time i walk down da car....even da ciggerete also i was unable 2 light it..
fuiyo...yeah...
fucked...its time 2 sleep ad..
2molo still nit 2 go skol at 9..
n tins still goes da same again...haizzzz...

Its done!!!!!!!

yeah yeah yeah...its done...my 1st blog..
errrr..dunnow wat 2 write also...
so i jus copy wat i've write before...hehe...

不该想的人

她。。。是我再中2的时候认识的。。那个时候和她同一班 。。那时还小没什么。。到了中4 她又和我同一个班。。那时的我们很要好，她有什么事来找我，我都会尽量的帮她。而那时的我渐渐的开始喜欢上她。可是有一天她却对我说，当我的哥哥好吗？那个时候我真的不知道该怎么办。答应又不是，不答应又不是。然而在她的央求下我答应了。。
原以为当哥哥也好至少我不会乱乱想。。朋友们跟我说在这个世界里，一个男生和一个女生是不可能有所谓的兄妹情。那时的我不明白为什么坚决说怎么不可能看我和她就是证明。。那时起我们一起补习，而每一此回家的时候我都会陪她一起等巴士。。每一天去上学第一样东西就是想见到她。。我和她就像糖痴豆不过却是所谓的兄妹情。。就这样又过了一年。。在学校假期里，我每一个礼拜都会有打电话给她和她聊天，关心一下她。在学校假期的时候有一个露营是给全州的学校的，那时我是露营的帮手而她是参赛者。到了晚上我看见她正在和一些男生坐在一起聊得很开心，不知怎么的我的心有一点痛。。之后她走过来找我，我明明是很累又很空闲的。。可是我却一直逃避她。。装忙。。我想我已经真真的喜欢上她了吧。。而我的好好的一个露营就在逃避的状态下过了。。
到了中五我又和她同一个班。。她还是一样对我很好可是她对我越好我就越害怕害怕当她知道我喜欢她的时候。。我会失去她。。就是因为害怕所以选着了逃避。。在班里不理她，处处逃避她。。可是我还是有在补习过后陪她等巴士。。这样又过了一年。毕业了。。很少机会会在遇到她了。。我却有一点不舍得。。难道就这样不明不白吗。。我决定和她表白。。可是却没有勇气。。每一此想说的时候却把话吞下。。
在那之后我得进兵营了。。到时更没机会了。。我终于鼓起了勇气写了一封信给她。。而她也和我想得一样拒绝了我。。我就带着一颗破碎的心进了兵营。。到了兵营我开始学坏，打耳洞，抽烟，打架，骂粗口。。。有一天她竟然来看在兵营的我。。可是却是和我的一个朋友来看我。。看见他们亲密的样子我那有一点复合的心完完全全的碎了。。真的碎了。。和他们又说有笑的。。却不知我的心在流着血。。
在那之后我就没见到她了，只是在去年见到她还是和他在一起。。听朋友说起她们的一些事。。