sumtin bout life...

dunnow lah...i write in chinese let ppl scold...i writen in english also let ppl scold...how u all wan wor...zzzz....suan liao la...write in bahasa...boleh??=.=lll
dun care dun care...write in english better...more ezier 2 write...

2 day...fucking sian....go out...dunnow do wat....
stay at home...more sian...so i choose 2 go out...bt most of all..i would like 2 say thanks 2 ah fei..
reli reli thank you lah...thanks 4 helping me out...i promiss u dat i will remember it n repay u with more....thanks...

jus now...chat wit sum 1 dat i've jus know....he told me many tins about life...be 4 dis...i tot i know many tins...seen many tins...bt then when i chat wit him...den only i know...wat i know is jus feather compare 2 wat he have seen..
he asked me...watz da meaning of life...
living for other ppl??
living for yourself??
living for responsible??
den i was jus stun at there...dunnow wat 2 reply...cus i nvr thought of that also...
den he said...its normal dat u still dunnow...u still young...still gt many tins u ned 2 learn...
he says...be 4 dis when he was a direct sales...he used 2 tink of $$ is everytings...
family is second...everytin he c is jus $$ n $$ n $$...
bt then by da time he lost his brother...he regreated...he sayz...if i gt 2 chose again...i will choose 2 accompany my family...n now i was stuck at here..dunow either 2 choose my family 1st or $$ 1st...he told me bout a story...bout 2 brothers...quite meaningfull..here is how it goes...
there is this 2 brothers...living at 80th floors...
both of them also is working 2 gether...so off day also 2gether lo...
den 1 day they planned 2 go for hill climbing...
on dat day...they when out...climbing hills...by da time they come back...
da lift under maintainence....so wat 2 do...use da stairs 2 climb up 2 80 floors lo...
they climb climb...untill 20 floors..they started 2 gt tired....cus with all da bags n gear...
so 1 of them suggested...y dun v put down our bags n gear at here...den come back n take it when da lift is operate again...den the other 1 sayz ok a....
so they put down the bags n gear...started 2 climb again....
when reached 40th floors..they was relax a bit lo..cus without da bags n gear...
den they started 2 quarrel...be cus of u lah..dint check 4 da notice...make me have 2 climb 80th floor..becus of u lah...say wat go climbing hills...den quarrel quarrel...reached 60th floors....
den they said...ei..stop quarrel lah..im tired of dis kind of conversation ad....jus climb 2 da 80th floors quitly ba...den all along da way 2 da 80th floors...they kept quite..n jus climd....
by da time they reached...da brother make a pose of letting his brother open da door...
bt then...his brother saiz..huh??i tot da keys is with you all along...
actually da keyz is at da bag then laied at 20th floors..

dis story tell us bout life...when u tin of it...in da 1st 20 years of life...ur carrying a burden dat ur family r giving u...they asked u 2 finish diploma...finish degree...finish spm...n then after dat...
ur free...cus u finished wat they asked...n now ur free 2 do wat ever u wan...n then by da time u reached 40...u started 2 complain dis n dat...u started 2 sayz...if only i knew...i would have be dis or that...n then when u reached 60th..u will started 2 become quite...tired of complaining...tired of whining...n by da time u almost die...u will tin of what u haven't do...or what u have wanted 2 do...bt then wait...when do you planned 2 do it??it was ofcourse in ur 20th rite??
so now...appreaciate tins...used ur heart 2 enjoy nt jus ur body....tink back...what u've done...
when he sayz till here...i was jus silence at there...dus i reli dunnow wat 2 say...i was tinking what i have done for my 21th years of life...nth...reli nth....im jus living meaningless..empty...
he sayz...once he asked a guys...ei..after u graruated liao...wat u wan do for living??
den da guy answer...everytins lo...i wana know all da tins....
den he asked again...ok..u wan do all da tins..bt then by da time u reached 30th..u still havent earn $$ will you be nervous??
ofcourse lah....sure de ma...
den he sayz...ok lah..u c har...now ur ad 20 sutin after u graduate..den...still gt 8-10 years 4 u 2 gt 30th...den if u reli wana learn tins a...1 years for each jobs..by da time u reached 30th..u still swithing jobs...still nt stable...n den u jus only manage 2 do for how many jobs?? 8?? 10??
wat for...u c all da millioniers...they only stick at 1...n they sucess in it...n y is dat....its cus ur mind concept....if u tin u can...u will sure can...like 4 example...for the colour red...when u all look at it..u all will sure sayz its red...n y is dat...y it isn't black or sumtin else...its becus ur told dat its red when da time ur born till now....n now...if i tell u dat...go do dark tins...."lou pian men"...
n i've been tells u for 5 years...u will sure go n do de ma....datz becus of ur mind....
althought u might sayz dat i wont dis n dat...bt diu...i also gt say be 4 lah..i wont smoke wan..
no matter wat i also wont smoke....bt now...smoke like my life only...no matter wat also i will smoke....n dat is wat u reli wan...no matter wat....even u dun have $$ also u will find a way 2 smoke...n y is dat...cus its sumtin u reli wanted...n when u wan sumtin...u will reli going 2 find a way 2 gt it n stick on it....its jus like a girl u like....u wan 2 ngam her...bt then ur scared of being reject...scare of dis n dat....n dat means u do not like u nt reli want her....its jus dat u have gud imation at her only....there r difference between like n gud imation u know....sum 1 u like doesn't mean dat u have gud imation at her...maybe u like her 4 her attitude...like her for her looking....
n do you know dat??
there is once a lecture...he asked sum ppl 2 ply a games...write down 10 tins datz most important in ur life..n write in according 2 da most till da less most....den sum of them write..
$$ come 1st lo..follow by family...den carrier....den friends....den loves...n den.....
ok now...da lec sayz...$$ come 1st...ok...by da time u ned 2 choose between $$ n family...wat will choose??sum of them says directly...of course family lah..bt then y izzit ur putting $$ at 1st??
den again...when u have 2 choose between ur family n ur carrier...wat will u choose now??
family??n datz y u still havent success till now.....
friends n carrier??? will u betray ur friends for ur carrier??n in da end...da less most..will probably become da most important....n datz becus u still cant sucess...u havent decided where 2 go n wat 2 choose 1st...
hmp now...have you ever been betray by u friends??nope??in dis world...
there r ppl dat will betray u...ppl dat u trust...ppl dat u care....by da time comes there r only 2 wayz u will choose...
1 is choose nt 2 trust da ppl around you...
n da 2nd 1 is 2 tink it another way....u still trust...bt nt all of them...cus u know..there r still gud friends..dun because of a tree chop off da whole jungle....
u know y is dat u dun have da mood 2 study??
datz becus of ur mind concept...u know dat even thought u cant finish ur studies..ur family still can support u..they still can raise u..n becus of dat u dint worry bout tins...
u have da benefit of all dat u ned..y dun u used it...u might sucess is ur life...dun waste it....used it wisetly....n 1 more tins...ur 2 quite lah....u should have talk more...dare dare share ur idea...
n u kept on like dis...u will lose in buisness..cus u 2 soft...ppl bully u..u also wont say a tins...
be brave...dare dare say out wat u tin...n ur point...no ppl will laught de...u must reli change ur attitude if nt u will surely be bully when ur in buisness..
n i've been talking so much...wat do u tin...bt then again...im nt 100% correct...no 1 is...
if u tin im jus craping...den forgot bout it..dun mind it..
by da time he finished...i was still stunning at there...tinking....
revising wat he've said...thought bout wat i should do...n wat i ned 2 do now...
as a conclution...dint sleep 4 da whole nite....tinking...
its time 4 me 2 change...he is right bout 1 tins...i am reli quite quite...ppl bully me..i also wont say a tins..cus i alwayz tin dat work prove more den sayz..bt then again...sumtimes...if u dint sayz ppl reli dunnow....cus they nt da worm in ur heart...
ok lah...stop talking ad....sleepy liao...nite nite....